Ignorance and Getting Past It :))

A little bit hurt right now and trying to not let ignorant comments get to me too much. I am so sick of people automatically assuming because I am overweight that I sit and eat all day. Matter of fact, my doctors have actually said I need to eat more or at least more regularly. Most days I can't even get hungry and don't end up eating until dinner time, if at all. And Lord knows how many people have suggested I need to get a gym pass or start exercising. How am I supposed to do that when majority of the time I am in pain, can't leave my house or the lights are bothering me and my eyes, not to mention the double vision! I have a great idea, why don't you come to my house and just watch how much I ACTUALLY eat. I have had food go bad because of how long it sits on the shelf by me not eating. It really makes me sad though, and I do try to remain positive & just ignore the comments. I would never wish this horrible disease on anyone ever but how would you like it if you got a disease that affects your health, weight and pretty much all the other aspects of your life?! I'm sure you wouldn't like it. The hard thing for me is when I was younger I was just tall, never actually what you would consider overweight. That didn't happen until after I was forced on medications after something horrible happened to me, and the medication interaction didn't mix too well and then caused me to start gaining weight. I had even been asked to join a modeling agency. And then when I first started having symptoms for this disease, other than the eye bulging, the other big one was me losing lots of weight in a very short amount of time. Then they were forced to remove my thyroid due to my condition not showing any sign of getting better, so now depending on my thyroid levels, I can go back and forth between hypo and hyperthyroidism, so the hypo kicks in, making it very hard for me to lose weight. At least that's how my endocrinologist explained it to me. I would love to lose weight but how am I supposed to lose weight with this disease?! Especially with my levels constantly being up and down! I don't know but I'm going to try my hardest because I'm sick of this, and people looking at me funny when I say I don't eat. Please, please anyone who reads this, be careful before you assume and judge people based on something not only do you know nothing about, but also something you don't want to or can't even try to understand. Mean, ignorant, non-productive, judgmental comments DO hurt people and their feelings. Seriously think about what you want to say before you do it, and if you think it could upset someone, DON'T say it. Thank you for letting me rant. Normally I am very happy and try to always stay that way but every now and then, yes I am a human being, my feelings DO get hurt and I do cry. Just not for too long. There will always be haters, people who just don't care. The important thing is to not let them get to you and stay positive and keep moving forward. At least that's my plan. God Bless you all & please always try to stay happy! :))
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypothyroidism

Oh the Pain...

Oh my gosh how this pain in my right arm is hurting me so! It like literally sucks the life right out of me, almost making me pass out. It was really bothering me yesterday too, so much that I actually went to bed much earlier than usual. I say that I'm strong, I know that I am but boy how much does this hurt & I hate it!!! It usually starts in my upper right arm and then moves throughout & radiating my entire arm with pain before making its way to my shoulders and across my chest, ending with me aching all over. Fortunately, now it's just in my right arm, am hoping it will just stay there or go away all-together. The worst part about this pain or any pains I ever have it that I HAVE TO endure it, all of it! I cannot take pain medicines or aspirin so unfortunately for me I just have to suck it up. I actually have rips in our mattress on my side of the bed from me gripping it so hard from being in so much pain! I never used to have these pains until I was diagnosed with this disease, Graves' Disease and had to have my thyroid fully removed due to myself & condition just getting worse, with no medication change, steroids or any of the other options my doctors had tried would work. And then from then on it seems as if at least half the days of the week if not more, I am suffering from this very pain I have described. I do wonder, however, if when they were removing my thyroid and accidentally damaged my parathyroid glands, if that could be the cause?! I do know I now have to take calcium supplements and vitamin D2 because of that damage to my parathyroid glands. My calcium levels get low, occasionally too low and I am unable to even lift my feet or depending on where it's affecting me, I will have problems there too, sometimes not even being able to move or get up without being in pain or falling over. Another reason I'm thinking could be how my levels are constantly up and down. My doctor has had me undergo bone density scans, x-rays and I believe some other tests to see what could be the cause, yet so far we don't know for sure. I don't know. I guess I'll continue to try to remain strong and optimistic. I refuse to let this pain win and overcome me. All that does it take away my happiness & prevent me from doing things I love such as spending time with the dogs and Jeff, and of course from trying to raise awareness for this disease & funds for education and research. Hopefully one day there can be a cure. At least that's what I'm working so hard for. I don't want to have to suck up this pain anymore. I will because right now I have to, and I want to be able to go out and do things with friends and family, or even something as simple as church or to the store. We have actually been out and this pain will start, and people say if you don't feel good I understand if you want to go home. I simply tell them that will not make the pain go away, I'll still feel it there, at least I can go out and still try to enjoy myself and have a normal life. I refuse to let it get to me too much. So far, at least as far as we know for sure, I have had this disease for about five years now, and as bad, as severe, as my symptoms have gotten, my doctors and I suspect longer. That's why it's important to get tested and seen as soon as you suspect something may be wrong, if not before even. I honestly can't imagine having this disease and all the pain & everything that comes with it for the rest of my life. I'm only 32 years old. I have a great admiration for those who have had this disease for a long time, and some even when they didn't even have the medical options/techniques we do now. God bless the many out there who have this horrible disease &  please for all our sakes, let there be a cure someday!
Thank you so much to all who read this and please remember to get tested if you haven't already! :))